Today’s Question: What are my three priorities for the next 30 days that will move me closer towards living life on my own terms? The quote that keeps popping up for me the last few days is the quote from Paulo Coelho, “What is success? It is being able to go to bed each night with your soul at peace.” I have not been very peaceful recently. When a friend suggested giving myself a break from my business, I was surprised at how peaceful I felt.
Priority One – Income Find a job with a regular daytime schedule and regular income. This could be contract work, or a permanent position, something that will help me meet my financial commitments and allow me to build my business at the same time. It’s time for me to stop putting pressure on my business to be my main source of income. This is not a reality at the moment. I would like it to be a reality in the future.
I have made two attempts at this in the last 5 years, both primarily feeling based, trusting and hoping it would work out. I think it’s time to balance head smarts with heart smarts. Yes, I’m in a new paradigm of business, that’s what it’s all about for me so I’m not following a conventional path, yet there is much for me to learn from other unconventional entrepreneurs who are making it work. I can see all sorts of things I’m missing and want to skill myself up in. And instead of coming from ‘deep hope’, there are definite conditions to be met before I will be confident that making a living doing what I love is really going to work for me.
And maybe the dream of earning well, off my own bat, from the skills I really want to use, doing what I feel called to do, will change as I learn more about myself, and be more self loving.
Priority 2 – Self-care I’m building a new relationship with myself. I invite my clients to do this all the time and I have been taking my own relationship with myself for granted. Time to take my own advice. As I have bumped up against the limitations of my comfort zone I have started to see there is work for me to do here. I have not wanted to admit that I have some deep seated worthiness issues. So deep I am barely willing to admit this to myself. I really don’t think of myself as someone with barriers around my own self-worth, but it has become difficult to deny, (tho I’m likely to continue to find another way to look at it, still not fully accepting this one!).
Priority 3 – Personal Development This feels like a no-brainer and a continual pursuit given it’s the industry my business is placed! However, it’s feeling like time to do some more growing. I have found myself drawn to online courses and workshops, and it feels important to honour that part of myself that is wanting to make sense of it all. As I continue to ramp up practicing self-love, the learning comes by integrating this care for myself into understanding myself, I continue to learn each day and want to put these learnings into practise more than have been.
The key take home for me in creating these priorities is that I’m great at helping other people do things like developing self-worth and cultivate self-loving practices and even finding ways of generating income, however my ability to do this for myself and see my own blind spots is pretty limited. So maybe doing a ‘time out’ for a little while is called for. I will keep the clients I have and assess new requests on a case by case basis. I won’t be marketing or creating new programs for a while. I know this blog challenge will provide plenty of insight as will the online course I’m doing, seminar I’m starting next week, and the inquiry through my Creation Circle and Spiritual Partnership. I have lots of support systems, time to put this stuff in place and get myself ready to start back on building my dream.